Log 04

Kaine
”… I looked above and saw something well beyond my time, an array of mirrors circling a device that which I believe maintains the atmosphere and temperature.”

“It looks like a city upside down, looking down on me. Through the mirrors, I can see myself, or what I was long time ago. Like pages of a history book, I tried to remember who I was, or what I was. Many would consider doing such self introspection on the afterlife, but it seems this is my afterlife”

(EDITORS NOTE: “city upside down, looking down on me.” Refers to Heaven, looking down on mankind. “this is my afterlife” is a hint towards  Recursive Universe)

“Was I good?.. Did it matter to me? Seems all irrelevant now. I breathe once more. Just like everything in this hallow chasm, it feels — artificial.”

“I remember now, what I was about, who I was. It was my destiny to rebel against death, against God because I could not fill the void in me — to feel whole again. But the horrible truth now reveals itself, I feel nothing.”

“Was Heaven so great that It could fit between stars? Hells so small that it could be contained inside a mans heart? Did we travel to worlds beyond and discover the horrific truth that the only answer to the question we did not want it to be answered was one and the same and there all along? These mirrors. They contain the truth, and truth is me. A failure.”

“Did we go closer to God when we left Earth, or did we descend to Hell? Did we become so estranged that we could not recognize ourselves at the mirror? We became the alien, because we could not quench the fire. Fire that was handed by Prometheus, burnt us at the very end. Pandora’s Box now empty, poisoned us — me with greed, and hope that… imprisoned me. Now that I know what I have done, how it unfolded, I stand here without a purpose.”

“I know who I am. I fell before I could walk. Tripped, before I could run. Condemned before absolved. I see my reflection colder now than ever before. Is this what it feels like to lose ones soul? Or truly be without burden of death? What was the price I paid, I can only forget to remember.”

(EDITORS NOTE: Condemned before absolved is a foreshadowing to his true identity, Cain, who was condemned for killing Abel but absolved by his actions on this “afterlife”)